First I met Hans in the early January 1999. It was in Simbach am Inn, a small German town next to Austrian border, where he had converted a
house into ashram.
That time I had just started my spiritual seeking after an incident
caused more or less serious traumas to my body. After reading "Autobiography
of a Yogi" I decided to search more information about Kriya Yoga and
found Cyberspace Ashram for Kriya Yoga, God and Love. in
There was an invitation to ALL godseekers on this planet wanting to receive diksha personally from Hans to visit him and stay at the ashram
as much as they like for absolutely FREE. The last thing attracted me immediately It was like a dream.
After a few e-mails everything was arranged even my traveling insurance was paid by a disciple in Germany.
So I extracted the most possible profit. With such behavior I arrived in Simbach Ashram bringing only money for my return back to Bulgaria- to avoid
possible paying or giving any money during my stay there. Although I had a small business in Bulgaria and several thousand $ in the bank account
I could not overcome my greed and stinginess.
As a result I was so closed that I could not feel any of the LOVE and BLISS surrounding me during my stay at the ashram- almost 1 month. So I
received practice and some basic teachings for the beginning But back in Bulgaria because of all intellectual trash my mind was filled with
How can one recognize a god realized person thinking???
I applied none of the teachings received and soon I gave up the kriya yoga practice and started my search for a guru/GOD again going through
different practices far away from the real goal. As a result no success at all. I was the same stingy husband and father ( we have two
daughters 15 and 16 years) with my family - giving nothing and wanting all.
Meanwhile my wife won a "green card" for USA from the well known lottery and we started preparation to leave Bulgaria.
At the end of the year I received a new chance (how much help from GOD to step on the right way back to HIM) to visit Germany and again for
free. My friend offered me to go with him to by a car. This trip had also spiritual purpose for him and I asked Hans to see him again. That
time he lived in Munich and was too busy leading online FAQ forum and writing new chapters. We spent with him a few days mostly meditating. First time in my life I felt something new- a tiny part of LOVE and PEACE around. It resulted in giving up all other practices and started kriya yoga again. I read again all chapters of the Cyberspace Ashram and tried to apply teachings in my life- far from the perfection of course.
Soon we left for USA and came in San Diego. We had some money from the property sold in Bulgaria and in the beginning we lived from it.
Spirituality, in my opinion, did not include working. Praying, practicing- yes. But not working. I became too lazy to support my
family and when the money finished up my wife had to go to work in a restaurant kitchen to do our living. We lived with almost no money
neither for me nor for my 3 female angels. In a addition I practiced celibacy ( again stinginess toward my wife ) keeping all love within my
physical body. But I was still playing a person actively working spiritually for the benefit of all.
In the summer of 2000 I had an important experience that opened my heart at least for one person - my Guru. It was in dream when I met my
guru and suddenly my heart opened and I started crying from the love flowing through it. Then I realized that I can really love somebody. And when I could not stay away from him anymore I decided to earn some money and go to the Philippines.
My lessons were waiting for me.
I arrived in the Philippines in the early March, 2001 with small amount of money, but in my opinion enough to pay for a three-week stay in a hotel
and have several dollars per day for all the rest. At that time Hans was living near San Fernando,La Union, in a cottage next to the beach. I
reached his place in the evening and took a cottage next to him. He was out somewhere. I took a shower and went to sleep. I was sleeping when I
heard his voice and a minute later he knocked on my door.
With an infinite joy in my heart I opened the door and fell in his arms. After a big hug he offered me to continue my rest and meet each
other next morning for breakfast. For my surprise he was with a girl.
I agreed and went back to bed. But I could not asleep listening to the noise in his cottage. And after a while... O MY GOD !!! They started
making LOVE! Skies fell onto my head. I was shocked. My mind was overloaded thinking. How can a guru do such thing? One of the first reactions was
to catch my flight back to USA and start my search for guru/god again. That night I was teared apart. But the TRUTH did enter my personality at last. All my doubts were cleared up after the breakfast next morning. There was so much Divine Love that even my mind surrendered and I prepared myself to enjoy my guru's love for the remainder of my stay. But obviously it was time to learn - to become husband, father, lover and helper.
- How can you follow your guru having nothing in your pocket?
- How can you love your family having nothing in your pocket?
- How can you help someone on this very material planet having nothing in your pocket/keeping your money in the bank account or credit card?
- How can you be a lover being weak and shy and lazy? How can you be a husband giving nothing to your wife, accumulating all love in your body?
- How can you receive love from others giving nothing in exchange.
It is SIMPLE.
- Become strong and independent.
- Love your wife any time in any way.
- Help others as much as you can.
- Support your guru financially = support of all mankind on this planet
It seems very simple but I had to experience all the opposite to find the right answers.
Even still so closed during my first visit in the Philippines I was enjoying Divine Love all the time. For FREE of course ;-))
And I made my firm decision: go back and work on all your answers
And I did so.
But more learning was still waiting for me. And for my wife.
How to become a real husband-wife team?
On this was dedicated our visit in the Philippines in October, 2001.
And again the answer is very simple- give ALL to receive ALL. From GOD. Directly.
We spent with Hans 5 weeks learning to love each other. In the very direct physical way. To reach the state where you can feel love with
all your body coming from God through the body of your partner. Where bliss lasts for hours.
Yes, it is very simple. Just follow the teachings of your guru.
It is hard work to overcome your ego. I witness.
And it is too simple- just follow the teachings of your guru ;-))
More learning is still waiting for me- eternally ;-)